Magic Mentha posted yesterday about her search for happiness. This is something I’ve asked the cards about on more than one occassion too, but never with very good results; too many Swords is my standard result. I’m always up for revisiting for new perspectives, but knew I had to do something different if I wanted different results.
I phrased my question very specifically, asking for clear vision and understanding, un-clouded by Ego and want (even if the answer would be displeasing). What I think would make me happy is to be somewhere with forest/mountains/water, where I could work on various creative pursuits, undisturbed by the world. I want to wake up in the morning, take a walk through the trees, down by the river, talk to my peeps, paint, sew, drink tea in my sacred garden. I need something where my interactions with people will be on my terms and where I dictate the boundaries of my income-generating work.
But I wonder if this is just my life-long drive to escape speaking. Or my fear (and until we win the lottery, it’s all moot).
So, assuming there is such a thing – where does my true happiness lie?
3 Card draw, with no assigned positions:
8 of Pentacles – Seer of Pentacles – 6 Lovers (jumper card)
I always see the 8 of Pentacles as the “artist” card, whether the artist in question works in traditional media or something more broadly defined as “art”. This artist has the opportunity to work at their craft, concentrate on it, focus until they reach mastery. I dreeeeeam of this. Oh, to be locked away in a room with a view and just… work.
While examining this card, I was very sure to step back and not automatically assume that it means “art”; it could mean something else that I’m supposed to master. But then, there are the jars of brushes on the table and the little girl reminds me of my younger artist self, guiding my hand while The Muse yaps away from my left shoulder.
The Courts in this deck have more in-depth descriptions than most and the Seer (Page/Princess) of Pentacles speaks very specifically to the other piece of my ideal life: being alone to commune with nature, to be still:
“The Seer of Pentacles is dedicated to comprehending the world around her. Quiet, receptive, and often alone, she finds solace in the earth and her creatures. She is learning to hear the earth’s wisdom and trust her instincts.”
There was a “jumper” while shuffling – *POW* into the air – which I left ’til last and read as the third card. Normally I would interpret The Lovers along the lines of opposites uniting etc. but here I think it is more literal. Part of the “art in the wilds” dream is what it would mean for my marriage; for us; our lifestyle. We share this dream and, as a teeny step towards it, we’re hoping – hoping – to be able to retreat to said wilds this summer for a month; sans electricity, sans running water, sans the world. Partly a dry run and mostly a “turn on, tune in and check out”.
The quint for this reading is 14 Temperance. Very definitely about bringing those two sides together in harmony: the want for having it my way, and the reality of what is needed to survive.
It’s nice to see my insides aligning with, well, my insides. Now to bring the outsides into the party!