The Magician. The Wheel of Fortune. The Sun.
Kiki drew my attention to something very interesting in my Dark Moon Illumination spread: “… not only is your Quint card the WoF, but you have all the “1″ card possibilities in this reading: The Sun, WoF and Magician.” Normally I’m right on top of the numerology and patterns in the spreads I do, but this one completely escaped my notice!
I’m not quite comfortable with these cards and I’m definitely not used to seeing 1 and 19 especially. I’ll have brief flashes where they make sense, but then it’s right back to being too “other” for me to grasp. As far as tarot triumvirates go, the High Priestess-Justice-Judgement triple-threat is much more my speed. What is it I’m supposed to learn from this particular combination?
From The Tarot School:
” The Sun reveals the shape and nature of everything, and fills whatever it touches with confidence and energy.
The Wheel experiences and accepts everything, and is excited by whatever happens to it.
The Magician manipulates everything with skill and intention, awakening and enlivening whatever he pays attention to. ”
Esoterically, understanding might still be a little off in the distance, but I think I have stumbled onto the mundane truth of it. With my job being quite dominant in my life right now, I was thinking about my position and how well I work within a system, despite being an incredibly round peg in a square hole.
It’s like this: I can work in a box. In fact, knowing the boundaries, rules etc. actually makes me happy; I like to know my limits (::HIEROPHANT! *cough cough*::). But, within that box I must, must, must be given complete and absolute freedom to do what I want, when I want, how I want. Do not interfere. These are the terms and they cannot be negotiated. If you expect to take on responsibility, then I must be given equal amounts of power and the freedom to exercise it. It’s a teeter-totter and my sanity and general well-being ride on it.
Exercising will… spokes on a wheel… happy functioning.
Action… acceptance… living.
Power… personal vision… assurance.
Focus… freedom… achievement.
… etc. really.
This is where I am and I think I am being told to remember and to pay attention to the balance. I can make it work. Even though it’s gone horribly wrong in the past, it has also gone fantastically right and I need to remember that. Remember who I was before I cracked, because I’m pretty sure, once upon another life, I was very much the Magician. And an older, wiser Magician is a powerful force indeed.